February 26, 2011

The Past Vs. The Present

i personally have experienced some difficulty lately in staying close to God the way i had been in previous months. i've been stuggling because everytime i sit to talk to God or to spend time in devotion i always find my mind turning to memories from last year, because of this i'd stopped spending so much time in devotion and prayer and instead filled my life with distractions. i only recently allowed myself to admit that it was creating a gap between me and the God i'd, only last year, felt so close to. so today i woke up determined to spend more time with him than i have been and refocusing my life on the relationship i'd allowed to suffer because of the problems with another relationshp in my life.

"One thing i do; forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead. i press toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus." Philippians 3: 13-14

i've come to understand how wrong it is to let other relationships in your life affect the one with your creator. i'd always known deep down the distance it was creating, but instead of facing the pain of letting it go, i chose to ignore it. well i am taking the initutive to choose to admit my mistake and try everything i can to fix it. i will no longer turn from God because of the other broken relationships in my life but choose rather to strengthen my relationship with him so i dont lean so much on those of this world that never truly had a sturdy foundation anyway.

i realize that i've grabbed ahold of something i'd sworn i had gotten rid of, this time i will work harder to not pick up the strings that have already been severed.

Excerpt from "When Dreams Come True"

Leslie Ludy is one of the people i look up to the most in the world and i've read several of her books. i was going through some papers and i found my favorite quote from her book "When Dreams Come True" and felt i would share it with you.

"A letter represents something far more than a kiss ever could. it evidences thoughtfulness and the gift of time. While a kiss can prove tender, it must overcome the stigma of impulsivness to truly display love. A letter on the other hand, when written in the spirit of ardor and romance--even if it never mentions passion--strokes the heart deeper than any form of physical touch. A kiss cannot be felt again and again from great distance; but a letter can be read and reread thousands of times. A kiss only fimiliarizes the lips with the physical body of a lover. A letter farmiliarizes the heart, mind, and soul. Maybe that's why God decided to write us a letter."

i read this "When dreams come true" years ago and have still hung onto this quote. it seems to touch me everytime i read it.
i hope you found the comfort and inspiration that i did in it:)